The Meaning Of Family (BEDM Day 15)

I wanted to find a challenge or a group that has a topic everyday that I could write about. It's not that I don't have any ideas of mine own,which I have ideas written down in a notebook. I just thought it would be fun to be part of something like that. This morning, I googled "Blog everyday" and I found this site that has ideas for the everyday in May. The website is http://www.rosalilium.com/2016/04/blog-every-day-in-may-2016/ . You sign up and then you get the calendar of ideas for each day of the month of May. It's called "BEDM", which stands for Blog Everyday in May. I'm a little late to posting but it doesn't matter; it's all to have fun and to enjoy writing.

Day 16 is Family. My family consists of my parents,who are divorced,two older brothers and one younger brother. I always wanted a sister but I have three brothers who I know can be annoying at times but they always have my back when I need them. When I think of the word family, I think of an unit. Yes, there will always be arguments and disagreements but family is still family. If you're new to my blog, you might not know how much my next sentence means to me. Family should always be there for you and love you no matter what. When I have a family of my own when I get married and have children,I don' t want there to be any thinking of the word "divorce" because you get married to the man or women that you love with all of your heart and want to spend the rest of your life with that person. If (and I know there will be like in every family) there are any disagreements and arguments , lets take the time to sit down and talk about the issue and figure out a solution that works for everyone involved.

What is your meaning of family?

<3 Amanda

(Happy) Mother's Day

Mother's Day this year is different for me as I don't have a biological mom anymore because she wants nothing to do with me. Some daughters want to grow up and be like their mom. but in my case I want to be the opposite of her, which I think I'm already am. I know that family should always be there for family. A mother should never do what she did to me. She made me feel unwanted and unloved. Now, there are some times when I think about the past and wonder if she has always felt that way about me and a child should never wonder about something like that.

I want to say Happy Mother's Day to all of my friends and (some)family who are mothers. If you're reading this and you're not a friend or family member of mine and you're a mother, Happy Mother's Day to you as well.


<3 Amanda

Reason for starting this blog

Hello to everyone who has taken the time to read this post. I decided to begin this blog due to having some personal/family issues, and I felt like I needed some sort of outlet because life has been stressful for the last month or so. My life was flipped upside down on March 30th. I thought I was loved by some family members but turned out, they don't love me and apparently has always disliked me for reasons I'm not sure about. I'm not going to give out the full story due to personal reasons and even though I have been hurt by these people I'm not going to give out names,just except their part in the family.

On this day a month ago, I was kicked out of the apartment I was living in with my mom and younger brother for basically no reason whatsoever. Even though it's my mom's apartment, she let my aunt and grandma take over. My mom didn't say one single word! They said I had to be out in a hour with all of my belongings or my aunt would throw all my things in the dumpster. She also said if my dad and I came back to the apartment, they would call the cops on us. What hurt me the most was when I was leaving the apartment for the last time, my mom didn't say one thing to me;no apologies, I love you, nothing. I later found out why I was kicked out, and the reasons were all lies. It was like they made stories up about me just to get rid of me. From that day forward, I no longer have a biological mom. I'm perfectly fine without having a mom as you'll read about down below.

So of course, I needed a home and I stayed with my dad for 2 weeks but then he also had plans arranged to move out of the state in the end of April. We were terrified about what would happened to me. My dad would never throw me out on the streets and I would never survive on the streets. My cousin and her husband graciously opened up their hearts and told me that I have a home and that it was with them. My cousin's husband saw how much I am a daddy's girl and how I needed a father figure near me and has taken the role of my Godfather(but I call him my dad #2). We both feel like we needed one another and that this happened for a reason. He has some personal issues with his own daughters (which I'm not going to get into,so please don't ask) and I needed a father figure near me.So we both gained what we needed; a father figure and a daughter.  My cousin has also taken the role of my Godmother/mother figure. 

I'm happier here then when I was living at my mom's. I feel loved, encouraged, supported and most especially wanted here. I finally have my own room after 5 years. I'm content with having no mother because I have two amazing dads who loves me a ton, are very protective of me and I'm told I'm daddy's little girl to both and also a great Godmother. My mom, aunt and grandma probably thought this would ruin me but it just made me stronger. 

<3 Amanda