Wednesday, January 31, 2018

25 Random Things About Me

Hey guys,

I have posted one of these a few years back but I thought I would post another one because I'm sure I have new readers. Hope you learn something new about me after reading :)

1. I'm not a big chip or popcorn person. I have to be in the mood to eat them
2. I attended two high schools
3. I almost lived in Canada. My parents misplaced my brothers' and mine passport or birth certificates when we went to Canada for vacation when I was younger and was trying to get back into the United States
4. I am re-watching Pretty Little Liars on Netflix
5. The Greatest Showman soundtrack is what I play on Spotify recently
6. The chore I dislike the least is dishes
7. The chore I like the most is laundry but not the putting clothes away part
8. After I take a shower, I brush my hair out and then throw it up into a bun because I don't like cold hair touching my neck
9. My least favorite vegetable are carrots
10. My favorite vegetables are broccoli with cheese and cut green beans
11. I like my penmanship
12. My favorite animal is dogs
13. My favorite Oreo flavor is birthday cake
14. I am sorta lactose intolerant. I can eat some dairy products.
15. I have never tried coffee but I don't think it smells that great
16. My favorite colors are pink, turquoise/teal, orange, and purple
17. If I could meet any singer, I would meet Carrie Underwood or Martina McBride
18. It's not on anymore but I could never be on Fear Factor
19.  I chose Carrie Underwood as my consonant to win her season of American Idol as soon as she said she likes Martina McBride
20. I'm a night owl
21. My favorite # is 7
22. I was born on December 28th but I was supposed to be born January 7th, so that might be how my favorite number is 7 somehow
23. My favorite cereal is Krave-Double Chocolate
24.  I like Target and Five Below
25. I like candles

Do we have some things in common? Let me know down below.

<3 Amanda

Saturday, January 13, 2018

I Have Anxiety ( Currently Undiagnosed)


Hey guys,

So this is a topic that I have wanted to write about but always stopped myself but with some current personal things that are happening, I felt the need to write about this. One of my big goals for this blog was to help people and I hope that me writing about my own experience talking about my anxiety helps at least one person. I was going back and fourth with what the title of this post should be. The two titles that I thought about were "Admitting There Is A Problem" and "I Have Anxiety (Currently Undiagnosed)", and by the title of this post you can tell which one I chose to use. I didn't go with the other title because anxiety is not a problem. Yes, it affects your daily life but it doesn't make you any difference of a person. You may just get scared, nervous, really anxious and more. It doesn't change who you are or make you a bad person. You shouldn't be ashamed that you have anxiety.

I cannot remember a time when I didn't have anxiety.  Being in school surrounded with other kids and adults made me really nervous and on top of that I was diagnosed with Selective Mutism when I was younger, which you can click here to read about my experience with that. I feel like I have overcame that a lot but I do still have anxiety. Within the past month, my mom gave me some papers from when I was younger. One of those papers were from a Psychiatric Consultation that was done on me when I was ten years old. One of the reasons for referral besides my Selective Mutism was "High anxiety". So if I do my math correctly, I have had anxiety for almost 17 years (Since March 2001).

I remember being really nervous to go up in front of class to do presentations in middle and high school, but in some classes, the teacher was very encouraging and supportive and so were my classmates. In my senior year, I remember taking science quizzes and tests in the teacher consultant's office because I would see my classmates finishing really quickly and it made me go faster because I didn't want to be the last one done. When I would rush on quizzes and tests, I would more than likely not do that well. My accounting teacher in my senior year made me retake a test because I think she might have noticed that I was rushing and didn't want to be the last one done. Instead of failing like the first attempt at the test, when she made me retake it (also do the review all over again), if I remember correcting I got a C on the retake. Teachers like her is what we need more of; encouraging, believing in you and supportive.

If you have anxiety you may not experience it the same way that others who also have anxiety. My anxiety makes me feel really nervous to take the bus because of many unfamiliar people and the fear of getting off at the wrong stop and then getting lost in a location where I'm unfamiliar with and the fear of something happening to me because I am tiny and weak. I just turned 27 and I don't have my license yet because I'm afraid that I'm going to get into a crash or turn into the wrong lane resulting in causing a crash. I am unemployed because I get really nervous before interviews and when I go into the interview even though they say that they will get back to me, they never do or I get the call that they went with someone else. And I won't lie, being in bad relationships hasn't helped my anxiety at all but I'm really happy to say that my boyfriend is one of my biggest supporters and I know his family is as well. And I truly truly appreciate that with all of my heart.

At the beginning of this month (with the suggestion of my boyfriend), I applied for Medicaid to be able to get help with going to therapy and getting on medication to help my anxiety at least calm down a little bit. I don't like the idea of taking medication everyday but I feel like I need to to make myself better. I am in the process of getting all of that figured out and sending them paperwork. If I am not accepted, I will do research to see if there is any other resources that can help me.

I also wanted to write this post because of some family members and friends who has asked me in the past, "Why don't you have your license?" or "Why don't you have a job?" I just felt like it was easier to type this whole thing out rather than explaining to them all individually and I'm a little tired of them repeatedly asking me. I also wanted to write about my experience with anxiety to help at least one person out there who also is going through anxiety or feel like they have anxiety but haven't been diagnosed.

<3 Amanda

Thursday, January 11, 2018

Anti-Bullying YouTube Families

Hey guys,

I sadly have been bullied the majority of my life and I just turned 27 recently. One of the goals I had for my blog is to be a part of stopping bullying because it doesn't do any good for anyone. Being a part of social media, I have seen others promoting anti-bullying as well on their social media accounts, whether that is YouTube, Instagram, Twitter or Facebook. Two YouTube families that I noticed right away that they were role model families and are anti-bullying are The Bos Life and The Tannerites. Now, I'm not saying there are not any other YouTube families who are anti-bullying, these are the two that I have noticed that has made a big impact on many people recently.

You can find the Bos Life here. They posted an anti-bullying video last month which really meant a lot to me because like I said above, I've been bullied the majority of my life and I'm only 27. You can view the video by clicking here. They created a hashtag; #BeCool. Being a bully is not cool. What cool is being nice to everyone because they might be going through things that you are not aware of. If you're a bully, how would you feel if it was the opposite and you were the one getting bullied?  To me, The Bos Family is a family that I really look up to as role models because whenever I watch their videos I just get this good feeling inside. Thank you Bos Family for being a great role model to not just me but I know a lot more of your subscribers. Thank you for being a good influence and making a great impact on social media.

You can find The Tannerites here. Their whole motto is "You Are Worth It". I think that's a great motto to have and to express to others because everyone IS worth it.  Whenever you see someone sad, upset, down, even happy, you should tell them that they are worth it because you might not see their true real feelings that they might be hiding deep down inside of them.  Johnny and Sarah are also great role models to all of their subscribers. Thank you for being a good influence and making a great impact on social media.

I definitely recommend these 2 YouTube Families. If you ever need some cheering up or a smile, you will feel better after watching their videos. Remember, you don't gain anything from being a bully!

<3 Amanda

Tuesday, January 9, 2018

What I Got For Christmas/My Birthday From My Boyfriend/ His Family

Hey guys,

I meant to get this post published earlier but then I got hit with a really bad stuffy nose, which hopefully is going away and all I wanted to do was take it easy and sleep. A few days after Christmas, I spent a few days with my boyfriend and his family to celebrate Christmas and also my birthday (the 28th). I wanted to show you guys what I received from them. By all means, I'm not showing off in any ways. I am grateful for everything that I received. If I know where the items are from, I'll mention it.

From My Boyfriend <3

The blue box was for Christmas and the black box was for my birthday. So pretty!  :)

From His Sister:

Chocolate (there were more. lol)  :)

From His Dad And His Girlfriend:

From His Cousin And Her Family:

From His Other Cousin:

From His Aunt:

The boots came from Wal-mart and I'm pretty sure the other items came from Kohls (I remember cutting a Kohls tag off).  The leggings and black jacket were for Christmas and the rest was for my birthday.

I Don't Remember Who This Was From:

If my boyfriend or his family is reading this, I just wanted to say thank you for making me feel special and loved on my birthday. I had a great day!

<3 Amanda 

Monday, January 1, 2018

2018 Goals

Hey guys,

I can't believe that it's already 2018. Nine years ago, I graduated from high school.  The years have flown by. I really hope 2018 is a good year for me and makes me happy. Here are a few of my goals for 2018:

  1. Hopefully get hired by someone. I'm tired of filling out applications, maybe getting an interview, going to interviews and then finding out that they don't want me or doesn't have any openings right now. Why the interview then? I don't understand.
  2. Blog more! It makes me happy when I see my posts views go up and the total page views go up.  I love that I can blog and maybe help someone through a difficult time or just make them smile.
  3. Get over my anxiety and learn how to drive. I get anxiety that I'm gonna cause a crash or turn into the wrong lane resulting in a crash. 

Do you have any goals for 2018? 

<3 Amanda